Just about 6 years ago, I wrote about never completing any of my projects. I mentioned that the reason was because of being worried about putting all that effort in and the project fails. 6 years later and I am still struggling with this, but I understand the reason why more.
I have severe imposter syndrome and right now I am at peak struggle with it.
As I sit here, paralyzed to complete the final two features needed to launch Primcloud public beta, the thoughts running through my head which fuel this imposter syndrome...
Sure I have the skills and expertise to build and launch the product, but do I have what it takes to keep the business afloat, support the customers that we get, and especially handle anything that could go sideways?
The stuff that could go sideways is the hardest for me, what if I just don't know how to fix what is wrong, and a customer's whole business is affected by this? It is very hard for me to accept the fact that I, my work, could be the reason a friend or someone elses business is affected in a negative way.
My thoughts are if I don't finish these two features, then we don't launch, and nobody can give us money. Because once they give us money, there's no going back. We cannot put the cat back into the bag.
That scares the crap out of me.
Imposter syndrome is real, and it sucks.