- May 25, 2023
- 3 min read
Today is my 38th birthday and I decided earlier this week to start a new campaign on my life I call "Just fucking do it."
The meaning of this campaign dates back to 2000 when I was moving from my old town of Seneca Wisconsin to Viroqua Wisconsin and starting my sophomore year of high school. I had always had issues with my temper and a short fuse growing up. I remember one time in like 3rd grade I glanced across the school's playground and noticed a girl looking in my direction and I didn't like it, so I went up to her and kneed her in the crotch. Why? I don't know, but that's a defining moment to explain how bad my temper and anger was as a child.
But when I moved, I had this chance to completely reinvent myself. Be who I wanted to be. And the who I wanted to be was not the kid known for fighting or having a short fuse to easily trigger for their own amusement.
So I took to this campaign of changing myself, which at the time had no name. But I told myself "Nobody can make fun of you if you already make fun of yourself. Now they're laughing WITH you and not AT you." So I became the funny kid. Everything was a joke to me, I was roasting myself harder than anyone else could.
That absolutely changed my whole life. Two weeks after starting at my new school I got pulled into the office and my principal said he was calling my old school as they think they got the wrong transcripts because the kid I was and the kid they prepared for were two seperate people.
But I seem to have lost that train of mentality over the years and had an epiphany earlier this week while over thinking a lot of stuff with my personal relationships and my work. I've written a few times over the past few years about struggles I have, such as struggling to complete projects or with imposter syndrome.
That changed this week. No more being the person I don't want to be. Time to just fucking do it and be who I want to be. This mentality has been doing great for me so far and if you think it'll help you, do it too.
Want to stop over thinking? Just fucking do it.
Want to be that person who gets up early and goes to the gym? Just fucking do it.
Just fucking do it.